A look back

So, haven't really posted a while. But, if you know me at all, you know that I don't really do a lot in my own journal let alone something someone else is going to see. But I do have a few things that I want to talk about.

Day 291

So I came over here to update my "Books" portion of my blog and found a suprise. I am only ONE book away from reading/listening to 30 books for the year! Hooray! I actually had to up my membership on audible because I was going through more than one book a month. So I am wondering what number I will get to by the end of the year? Probably only a little over 30 since the year is almost over. Holy crap! The year is almost over!

At work we are already working on implamenting the holiday decorations. Not putting them up until after Thanksgiving, but we are buying a lot and coming up with things to get people in the door. And let me say, I love being busy. I enjoy working here....a lot. Granted, my ideal job would be to dance all day at my own studio and teach dance. But that will not pay the bills. And we have bills.

But I digress. This isn't going to be long as I do need to get back to work. But I thought I would put that in since I noticed it as I was updating.

Another fun fact. It has been 15 weeks since I was told I was "pre-diabetic" and started eating fewer carbs. I was at 185 at that time and I size 16. This passed weekend I had to go out and get more slacks for work as I only had 2 pair that fit me. They are all size 14. I dropped a whole pant size! And I got on the scale this morning to see what it would tell me. Ladies and gents..........................170lbs!!! I haven't seen 170 since before J and I started trying for a baby! That is 15 pounds gone in 15 weeks. I honestly can't believe it! Granted I am not able to eat some of the things that I used to. But just like soda, I am getting used to not having it. Speaking of soda. I have not had soda since April. That is 7 months without. And I must say I don't miss it as much as I used to.

Well thems the facts as I know them. Bye!

H

Day 255 - An Opinion needing to get out

I have an opinion. This thought has been in my mind for a couple of weeks and I need to get it out. And I keep feeling like I should either state that opinion or keep it to myself. So I am writing it down so that I can stop thinking about that opinion. And it is MY opinion. If you agree, fine. But if not, it is still my opinion. You do not have to read on.

Day 250

So I realized something the other day and have yet to talk about it.

Day 222

This entry is going to be in pieces because new things keep coming up or I go do something else here at work because it's my job but then want to say something here. So bare with me. :)

Ventings and Crap-ola

You know maybe I am not cut out to do Zumba. I really enjoy and I have been doing it for the past 3 years. My classes never seem to really grow. I am always have something else going on when traingings are happening and just got told that what I do is too hard. And this is the stuff I actually get from the Zumba DVD's I get. It's  not very often that I make up my own stuff as I like what Zumba corporate does. It's not really corporate, but I couldn't think of a better word.

And of course I am completely distracted at my job because of this. I give my opinion to an event that happened on Saturday. And what do I get in return? Well her Zumba was too hard for the kids. You know I actually work at this place and what I perceive is my reality. And to me, people were late and things weren't ready to go at 10:00AM when they were supposed to. And a vendor was doing something it was explicitly told not to.

I have been certified in Zumbatomic for a year now, and I am going to be starting classes in September. But am I actually qualified? Am I a good teacher? I don't know anymore. A few years ago I think I would have said yes. Because I wasn't this bitter person with a dark cloud that seems to loom over my head most of the time. But now I don't know.

What am I supposed to do?

Day 207

So I have had this up for awhile to talk about the book series I am reading/listening to. But I kept getting distracted and just can't seem to get started. So I will have to do it later. I will say I am not even halfway to 50 books and I only have half a year to go. I may have needed to start with a smaller number. Okay, I will say  if I can get to 30 books by the end of the year then great! I am at 17 books so far. I am going through about 2 books a month so I may be able to make it.

Like I said I am being distracted. But I will put what I weighed this morning.....179.8lbs! That is -0.6lbs from last week! Pretty happy. I will say no more as I am very busy. Perhaps when I get more time I will talk about the series I am reading.

H

Day 199

Well I have been 2 weeks into trying to eat low carb items, but only 2 days into doing mostly Atkins type meals. So here is my weigh in....

My blog

So I have realized that the nature of this blog has changed a bit. I started out with a postitive outlook for 2013 and made some goals. Of course I realize that this might have been my way to keep covering up my depression which of course doesn't/didn't help.

2 and a half years later......

2 and a half years ago my mom died......I have had 4 miscarriages.....But I have been with an amazing man for 6 years now....

Into week 5.....

Weigh In:

Previous - 184.8
Current – 183.2
-1.6lbs lost

Monday Weigh In

Realized I hadn't posted this.....

Weigh In:Previous - 184.8
Current – 184.8
No lbs lost.

Though I am not really suprised. I think I took in as many calories that I burned. But I will say that I have noticed the difference in how my clothes are fitting again which people say you need to look at more than the scale.

So I am going to try and start doing more than just the cardio work. I saw this 30-day Abs challenge that I think I am going to try. We shall see how that goes.

Had to start over my 2nd week of C25K as I didn't really get my 3 runs in last week. Hopefully I can get them in this week. I missed yesterday because I ended up staying way too long at the fabric store and got super hungry. I also had a friend coming over to hang out, so I really didn't get it in like I wanted. Hopefully I can do it tomorrow. Get to see my new nephew tomorrow night. So I hope I can run before they come over.

Anyway, that's all for now!

H

Week 3??

Weigh In:

Previous - 185.2
Current – 184.8
-0.2lbs

The Comeback

Well I am back at it. For the past week I have started back on my getting my goals accomplished this year. And let me tell you, it is hard when you feel like the one goal in your life that you “truly” want won’t happen.

For those who knew, who didn't, and who wanted to.

In my last post I was frustrated that I wasn't losing any weight. And I haven't been able to post since then because I found out why. I was pregnant. Key word, was. We weren't telling anyone because this was my 4th pregnancy and we didn't know what to expect.

I think my resolve has dwindled. I haven't wanted to post anything about anything I have been doing because I have been feeling awful about myself. Although I don't know why I should. I did end up getting a job. An actual, full time job. Since my layoff in 2011, I haven't had a full time steady job. There was way something. But now I do and I really enjoy it.

Fitness Challenge - Day 6-8

Back is getting better. Which is nice.

Fitness Challenge - Day 5

Lower back is still giving me trouble....

Fitness Challenge Day 4

Got a little busy today and was a bit preoccupied with somethings. But I still feel like I can count this as a day for the challenge.

Fitness day 3 - Weigh in

Current weight - 180.8
Previous weight - 180 (+0.8lbs)
Waist - 34
Hips - 42

Definitely not what I was expecting after 2 weeks of not really caring. Did Zumba Core on the Wii last night and I think I did something to my lower back. But it could be just lack of use and muscles trying to work and tone. however, I will be taking it pretty easy today just in case.

H

Fitness Challenge - Day 2

I think I did okay today. I tried to keep my calorie intake down, but ended up going over. Luckily I still had my fitness to do which helped. I did my Zumba on the Wii for an hour. I did the lower intensity one today as I am trying to vary my routines. I also tried doing it in my bare-feet. Which is not recommended but I was on carpet so I thought I would try. It was okay until the end when my feet started burning from all the friction. So I am going to have to try something else. I have seen these things that you put on your shoes to help with moving on carpet. I may try that.

Other than that, I got some work done in the sewing vector. Finally finished beading a friends overskirt to one of her costumes. And then I have started beading her underskirt and bodice that matches. Am I crazy? Possible, but it will look really pretty.

Night

H

Fitness challenge - Day 1

Well finally got into my fitness challenge. It took me a minute to get into it because I was busy being lazy. And I had gotten pretty good at it. But I did start, so that is good. Here is how it went.

Let me explain, no there is too much

Let me sum up...

Day 32 - Weigh in

Today's Weigh In:
Last week - 181.8
This week - 180.0 (-1.8lbs)
Waist - 33.5 (-.5 inches)
Hips - 40 (-2 inches)

Not exactly what I was expecting. I guess this is what happens when I just keep trying. Let's hope I will have more success!

Say 31

So I didn't realize it has been a week since I have posted! And what a week I guess! Although nothing extremely crazy happened, but I really wasn't in the mood to post.so I will say a few things, then it's off to bed for me.

Day 24

Well I have seem to have fallen off the running track....for now.

Day 20-21

I was no in a good frame of mind last night.

Day 18 - Weigh in Day

Today's weigh in:

Very cold weather=complete lack of motivation

It's true! It has been frigid the past couple if days, and I have not wanted to do anything.

Day 14

So I took a bit of a break...

Day 11 - Part One

Today's weigh in:
180.6
+2.6 from last week
No loss!

Needless to say I am not in a vey good space right now. When I wasn't trying and it was right out of my DNC surgery I weighed 176 lbs. so how is it when I become more active and try to watch what I am eating is when I gain so much. I honestly can say I feel like quitting. This is so frustrating. What am I doing wrong. I even thought that maybe I would see a difference in my inches because I feel better physically and thought I looked smaller. But there has been no change whatsoever! What am I doing wrong? Argh!

Day 9

So, I didn't post this weekend as I went out of town. So let's recap the events of the weekend....

Day 5

So totally realized I haven't written today and I would like to go to bed.

Day 4

Just a little update for today....

Day 3

Didn't get a chance to post last night. So I am doing it this morning.

Progress...One step at a time

Well I made some progress today. One goal that I didn't mention, but kind of did, was that I am wanting to do more with Zumba.

Inspired and ready to go

So I have decided to start a blog to make sure I stay on track on all of my goals for my future.