So I was going through my phone and looking at all the pictures. I was really trying to see if there were any I needed to get rid of because they were pointless. And I came across a picture that shocked me.
It's a picture of me at my heaviest. I was 185 lbs. I had just had another MC in April, and I had no idea that I was pre-diabetic or that I had a huge fibroid on my uterus.
At this point in my life I was still depressed and had yet to talk to someone about it. I had not been through the ad-nausium of blood tests to figure out WTF was going on with me.
I really don't know why I took that photo. I am in a sports bra and it looks like it's my normal "weekend" hair. The one where I am not going anywhere and I just put it up when I woke up that morning.
Since then I have gone through quite a bit. I won't repeat it as I feel like I do that a lot. Anyway, J and I were headed out to the gym last Saturday. And as I was getting ready, I remembered that picture of me back in May. So I decided to take a current picture and see the difference.
Please ignore the hair as that is my "I have only been up 20 minutes and no I haven't showered" look.
The reason I am getting this down is not for you to say "you look great". The reason I am showing you is for you to see the difference in my attitude. I have gone through a lot even since May. I got thereapy, changed my diet, apparently my hair color (*laugh), had surgery, and have a new outlook on my future.
No, I never wanted to go through what I have. But if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't be where I am today. And I am thankful (of sorts) of where I am in my life. And I continue to look forward for whatever the future has in store for me.
H
It's a picture of me at my heaviest. I was 185 lbs. I had just had another MC in April, and I had no idea that I was pre-diabetic or that I had a huge fibroid on my uterus.
At this point in my life I was still depressed and had yet to talk to someone about it. I had not been through the ad-nausium of blood tests to figure out WTF was going on with me.
I really don't know why I took that photo. I am in a sports bra and it looks like it's my normal "weekend" hair. The one where I am not going anywhere and I just put it up when I woke up that morning.
Since then I have gone through quite a bit. I won't repeat it as I feel like I do that a lot. Anyway, J and I were headed out to the gym last Saturday. And as I was getting ready, I remembered that picture of me back in May. So I decided to take a current picture and see the difference.
Please ignore the hair as that is my "I have only been up 20 minutes and no I haven't showered" look.
The reason I am getting this down is not for you to say "you look great". The reason I am showing you is for you to see the difference in my attitude. I have gone through a lot even since May. I got thereapy, changed my diet, apparently my hair color (*laugh), had surgery, and have a new outlook on my future.
No, I never wanted to go through what I have. But if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't be where I am today. And I am thankful (of sorts) of where I am in my life. And I continue to look forward for whatever the future has in store for me.
H
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