Day 14

So I took a bit of a break...



I could have made a daily post about how depressed I was about my weight issue. And you think I would be fine because I am moving forward in some other parts of my life and goals. But sometimes when you get in a funk, it is really hard to get out of it.

But I will say that my friend Deebs helped me out. She is a good friend and helped me understand that it is more about how I feel and how my clothes feel, than what the scale says. And I think that helped. I do feel different. I may not be able to see it yet, but I can feel it.

I did a run on Thursday with J and I will say it wasn't as awesome as it has been. I think I was trying to push myself out of my funk. Trying to get the kinks out by soldiering on. And when we started, everything seemed okay. But once we hit our "jog" mode, things stopped for me. My calves were really tight. I have been trying to stretch them out and every other time I have been able to warm them up. But Thursday was bad. I couldn't seem to warm them up. And I was still in the funk. Even our conversation during wasn't as pleasant. That usually means something is going on. I should have just stopped. But I kept trying. Finally, at the end I gave up and walked the rest of the way home. I felt horrible to do that, but I just didn't have the drive that day. But that doesn't mean I haven't given up. I took Friday off to try and rest my muscles a bit. I did do my Zumba Core on the Wii today which was nice. Though my legs still felt tense. I massaged them a little afterwards, but they are still sore.

But I am not giving up. I will keep on going. I am determined to make this year a different one.

Night!

H