In my last post I was frustrated that I wasn't losing any weight. And I haven't been able to post since then because I found out why. I was pregnant. Key word, was. We weren't telling anyone because this was my 4th pregnancy and we didn't know what to expect.
But we did have some optimism. We went to see a reproductive endocrinologist to see if we could find out what was going on with this pregnancy. We were also waiting to tell everyone because we did t want to jinx it. Some people found out anyway which is fine.
So now you all know. We went into the doctor today to see if there was something in there and there wasn't. So I will mourn another loss. But the. I will come back to my original goals. This pregnancy was a surprise. And we though that was a good sign. Obviously not. We are going back on our break from trying and we shall see what comes around the next bend.
I am trying very hard not to be too emotional while writing as its counter-productive. Also, if there are any words of encouragement such as: "be patient, it will happen", or "it will happen when it happens", or "these things happen for a reason" are thing we have heard many times. And I am trying not to sound rude, but those words tend to make it worse for me. I understand the meaning behind it as I know you care. It's just hard.
Stay tune for more updates on my resolutions.
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No words. Just a hug and loving prayer.
ReplyDeleteI mourn with you. I hope with you. I think about you. I love you always. **hugs**
ReplyDeleteI will not say any of those things to you. I lived through it myself and know exactly how "empty" those words are and how frustrating they can be.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you. And the offer of a shoulder to cry on or a ear to listen, if you want it.
Love you
ReplyDeleteI am thinking and praying for you Heather.
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