Into week 5.....

Weigh In:

Previous - 184.8
Current – 183.2
-1.6lbs lost

It has been a whole month since I have had a soda. And let me tell you, I feel different. It wasn’t an initial plan to be off soda. But one day I decided to have something besides soda with my meal. And so I did the next day, and then the next. Until 4 weeks later, I have not had any soda. I feel that that is a real accomplishment for me. I used to be a BIG soda drinker. It was sometimes my equivalent to get my caffeine fix. Or because I thought it would quench my thirst. But obviously that wasn’t the case. I have found other means and I am enjoying it so far.

I have also noticed that I am making an effort to see what I eat throughout the day and trying to make different choices. Of course J and I are trying our best to make things at home more often which helps. But it used to be when I went out or drove through, I would just get a burger and fries or something equivalent. But I have come to the understanding within myself that if I had something pretty heavy at lunch, I should eat something lighter for dinner and vice-versa. I have also noticed that I don’t tend to just stuff my face. I take my time and try to let my body tell me what is going on.

Thirdly, (if there is a thirdly) I went on my C25K runs this last week by myself. Did you hear me? I did them by myself. If any of you know me, or know my mother, in these types of situations, I would normally back down if I didn’t have someone there pushing me to do it. Like C25K. J and I have been trying to get back into it now that the weather is getting better. And I told myself that if our schedules didn’t coincide that we would do them separately on our own schedule and go together when we could. And normally, I would come home wanting to run, but if he wasn’t home or was too busy to do it that day, I wouldn’t do it either. I would find something else to do, and it normally wasn’t exercise. It was plopping myself in front of the TV or computer or something. But last week I had to redo my Week 2 as I didn’t get to do my 3 days the week before. J and I went together on Monday, but then he had work on Tuesday. I was going to do Tuesday by myself, but that got derailed by some fun crafty time with a friend.  Then I had Zumba on Wednesday, and my brother/GF/kids came on Thursday. So Friday I was determined to do it. J had fencing practice so he couldn’t come with me. So I went out on my own. I decided to listen to my book on my IPod and just keep an eye on my phone for the changes. And let me tell you, it was really nice. I enjoy doing it with J because that is quality time with him that we normally don’t get. We can talk about things that are going on and discuss solutions to any issues we have. But jogging on my own was nice. I actually would end up missing a cue every now and then because I would be so engrossed. It actually made me forget that I was jogging. So I did it again on Saturday. J couldn’t again because he injured himself and was taking it easy. So mid afternoon I took a break from sewing and went out. And I actually went farther!

And with all of this I just want to tell myself how proud I am of myself. Is that allowed? Because I am! These are little things to others maybe, that in my mind are kind of hugely epic! And let me say I am so glad that I started this blog. I do have a private journal that I talk about some other things in my life that you probably don’t need to read. But this blog has been good for me to get out and be productive. I have gone through some complete crap the past couple of years. And I am still working the kinks out on those things. This is why I am patting myself on the back with these little accomplishments. I could be in my house in a corner crying myself into oblivion over things that were and seem to be out of my control. But I feel like there is something stronger inside of me that wants to keep on fighting and say “Piss off depression! I have other things to do!” Or something like that.

H