Day 222

This entry is going to be in pieces because new things keep coming up or I go do something else here at work because it's my job but then want to say something here. So bare with me. :)

I am re-reading/listening to the "Hunger Games" series to refresh my memory and prep myself for the upcoming movie. And I am counting it for the "30 books by the end of the year" because I am reading it. I have just read it before.

And I must say, there are things I am remembering, and things that I totally forgot about. I am really excited to see what the movie will turn out to be. It was actually the movie that got me into reading the books. And it's not often if ever that that happens to me. And of course they changed it around a little bit. But I will say that they still got the "feel" of the first book. I am really hoping that the second movie will be the same. It's a fact that noone can ever remake a book into a movie and make it exactly like the book. It just won't happen. There are so many different things going on in your head when you read the book. The author puts so much more stuff in the book that is usually underlying in the movie. And those who read the book will understand. And if the movie is done really well, then the person who didn't read it, will still get the same feeling.

So I took a picture of my Smoopy this morning for his first day of school. I figured "Why not? Every parent is doing it to their kids. Why not me and my husband?" I mean since we have been together he had a teaching job at Blue Valley for a year and then got laid off. Then for the past 5 years he has been a substitute teacher. He has done pretty good as the years have gone on because he is such a great teacher and other teachers started requesting him a lot. But that doesn't help in the summer months. He only has like 3ish months to find a job and work. But since he won't be there during the school year, was there really any place that would take him? So we have struggled over the past 5 summers. We would know that this would happen and try and save our money so that it wasn't too bad. But once I was laid of from my job, and couldn't get one for a year and a half, the summers got extremely rough. Wow, so didn't mean to go into that. What I meant to go into is that my wonderful husband has worked very hard to earn the appreciation of the principal and teachers of this school. So much so that the principal let him know as soon as there was an open position for him to send her is resume. Not saying he was garunteed. Just saying that it was nice to be appreciated and know that the principal was trying hard to get J into this school because of how great of a teacher he is.

And I am not being biased because he is my husband. I have seen him teach and I have heard from others how he makes the subject, any subject, sound more interesting. I am so proud of him and can't wait to see what this year will bring him

Speaking of this year....I had to cancel my surgery to get my fibroid removed. We just can't dole out $1k+ automatically to do this. As much as I wish we could just get it over with. It reminds me that we need to have patience with this stuff. This is definitely a clue from the universe that we aren't ready to start trying again. And let me say that we have needed this year. I still haven't found a therapist to go to, but I really haven't been looking. I think I am afraid to. Don't know why though. I know I need to do this so that I can move forward. But I just haven't. I will say that I really appreciate the friends and family that I have that are willing to just listen to me rant and rave about this stuff. I don't call on it often as I am uncomfortable with laying it all out there. Even though there are those who say they are fine with it. But anyway....we will wait until probably the beginning of next year to have the surgery and start working on trying again.

Okay...I have more to say, but I think this is long enough for now.

H