Week 3??

Weigh In:

Previous - 185.2
Current – 184.8
-0.2lbs

Well, I am into my third week of doing the WW thing. And over all I think it is going well. However, let me tell you how hard it is not to eat fried things when you are going through something extremely uncomfortable. The first 2 weeks have been good. I have tried to stay within my points and make an effort to be more active. Then about last Wednesday it happened. ****Skip if this is too much information**** After 2 weeks of finding out that we were no longer pregnant, my body finally decided to reject whatever was left inside. The worst day was Saturday. I literally did nothing all day. And because I felt so awful, I wanted something fried. Because you know, when you are feeling bad, fried, greasy foods always help. Right?

So that is probably why I didn’t lose an entire pound that I wanted. But hopefully this will pass and I can do better with my eating habits.

The weather was pretty nice last week. So J and I started our Couch to 5k. And we actually made it all 3 days. I must say, I do really like running. I have always had it in my head that it was awful and I never wanted to do it. This week I am hoping to get my 3 runs in. But it is expected to be really cold again at the end of the week. And that always tends to ruin my resolve. If that is the case, I will probably end up doing my Zumba for the Wii. The only thing is that J doesn’t do Zumba, so he won’t get his workout in.

Last week was pretty busy. Like I said I did the “Couch to 5K” thing. But I also did Zumba on Wednesday. And then on Friday, I went to a ceilidh that was pretty cool. There are quite a few Irish dance groups in the KC Metro area. And on Friday, we all got together and had a Ceilidh. Ceilidh means party and that is just what we did. It was so much fun! By the end I was completely exhausted. And I will tell you this. Before I got the event I was not doing so well. I was going through the beginnings of my MC, I was feeling angry about quite a few things and got to the ceilidh with a pretty sour disposition. Unfortunately lately that seems to be my MO. But then I started watching the other performers. I found myself immersed in it. And by the time it was our turn to dance, I was ecstatic! All of my trouble seemed to just lift for a little while. I really enjoy dancing. And I really enjoy how I feel when I dance. Especially when I don’t care about my technique or what other people think of me.

And of course this doesn’t mean that my anger didn’t resurface. Lately I have been a very angry, sad and bitter person. And I wish I could just get out of it. It has been really hard for me not to just look at my situation and just shut myself off from everything. Because I am really tempted. And things are looking up. I have a job that I really enjoy. J has finally got a teaching job that he has been working towards for a long time. I get to do my Zumba again.  So yes, there are some positives in my life. It’s just sometimes those positives can’t seem to outweigh the negatives. And I really am trying. I try not to dwell on the negative and work towards the positive. I just hope that this year will give me more positives so that I can return to the woman I enjoy being. And of course it doesn’t help that I am still hurting today with the MC which always brings my mood down.

Another positive that is going on….I am an aunt. Last night my brother’s girlfriend had a little boy. So I am officially an aunt. I can actually say that there is a baby in my family. Even though it isn’t mine. I got to hold him at the hospital for a little bit last night. And it was a bittersweet moment. He looks exactly like what my brother did when he was born. I hope that I can be a good aunt like my aunts have been to me. And I really hope to spoil the crap out of him!

Anyway, I seemed to have gotten on a somewhat sad note. So let me try something else. White Hart is almost here, and things seem to be coming along nicely. As a seamstress it is always neat when I get to learn new things. Or maybe I should say try new things. Let me explain. This year we have acquired 2 new performers who want to be pick pockets. They are working on their other clothes as I told them I would do their bodices. You know when you get an idea in your head about what you think things should look like. But instead of trying to explain it, you just do it yourself? That’s what I did. And what I am doing is making 2 patchwork bodices. And I think they are turning out pretty cool. I literally just took all the scraps of fabric I had from previous costumes, made a yard and a half of fabric out of it, and then cut out the pattern. And maybe it’s just me, but I always get excited when I try something new and it turns out the way I planned!

Of course I have a lot of other sewing projects going on as well as my full time job. I am just a person who enjoys being busy, as well as a person who likes to take a day off.

Well this was longer than I expected. So….bye!

 
H