Ventings and Crap-ola

You know maybe I am not cut out to do Zumba. I really enjoy and I have been doing it for the past 3 years. My classes never seem to really grow. I am always have something else going on when traingings are happening and just got told that what I do is too hard. And this is the stuff I actually get from the Zumba DVD's I get. It's  not very often that I make up my own stuff as I like what Zumba corporate does. It's not really corporate, but I couldn't think of a better word.

And of course I am completely distracted at my job because of this. I give my opinion to an event that happened on Saturday. And what do I get in return? Well her Zumba was too hard for the kids. You know I actually work at this place and what I perceive is my reality. And to me, people were late and things weren't ready to go at 10:00AM when they were supposed to. And a vendor was doing something it was explicitly told not to.

I have been certified in Zumbatomic for a year now, and I am going to be starting classes in September. But am I actually qualified? Am I a good teacher? I don't know anymore. A few years ago I think I would have said yes. Because I wasn't this bitter person with a dark cloud that seems to loom over my head most of the time. But now I don't know.

What am I supposed to do?

Day 207

So I have had this up for awhile to talk about the book series I am reading/listening to. But I kept getting distracted and just can't seem to get started. So I will have to do it later. I will say I am not even halfway to 50 books and I only have half a year to go. I may have needed to start with a smaller number. Okay, I will say  if I can get to 30 books by the end of the year then great! I am at 17 books so far. I am going through about 2 books a month so I may be able to make it.

Like I said I am being distracted. But I will put what I weighed this morning.....179.8lbs! That is -0.6lbs from last week! Pretty happy. I will say no more as I am very busy. Perhaps when I get more time I will talk about the series I am reading.

H

Day 199

Well I have been 2 weeks into trying to eat low carb items, but only 2 days into doing mostly Atkins type meals. So here is my weigh in....

My blog

So I have realized that the nature of this blog has changed a bit. I started out with a postitive outlook for 2013 and made some goals. Of course I realize that this might have been my way to keep covering up my depression which of course doesn't/didn't help.

2 and a half years later......

2 and a half years ago my mom died......I have had 4 miscarriages.....But I have been with an amazing man for 6 years now....

Into week 5.....

Weigh In:

Previous - 184.8
Current – 183.2
-1.6lbs lost

Monday Weigh In

Realized I hadn't posted this.....

Weigh In:Previous - 184.8
Current – 184.8
No lbs lost.

Though I am not really suprised. I think I took in as many calories that I burned. But I will say that I have noticed the difference in how my clothes are fitting again which people say you need to look at more than the scale.

So I am going to try and start doing more than just the cardio work. I saw this 30-day Abs challenge that I think I am going to try. We shall see how that goes.

Had to start over my 2nd week of C25K as I didn't really get my 3 runs in last week. Hopefully I can get them in this week. I missed yesterday because I ended up staying way too long at the fabric store and got super hungry. I also had a friend coming over to hang out, so I really didn't get it in like I wanted. Hopefully I can do it tomorrow. Get to see my new nephew tomorrow night. So I hope I can run before they come over.

Anyway, that's all for now!

H