Day 255 - An Opinion needing to get out

I have an opinion. This thought has been in my mind for a couple of weeks and I need to get it out. And I keep feeling like I should either state that opinion or keep it to myself. So I am writing it down so that I can stop thinking about that opinion. And it is MY opinion. If you agree, fine. But if not, it is still my opinion. You do not have to read on.

Day 250

So I realized something the other day and have yet to talk about it.

Day 222

This entry is going to be in pieces because new things keep coming up or I go do something else here at work because it's my job but then want to say something here. So bare with me. :)

Ventings and Crap-ola

You know maybe I am not cut out to do Zumba. I really enjoy and I have been doing it for the past 3 years. My classes never seem to really grow. I am always have something else going on when traingings are happening and just got told that what I do is too hard. And this is the stuff I actually get from the Zumba DVD's I get. It's  not very often that I make up my own stuff as I like what Zumba corporate does. It's not really corporate, but I couldn't think of a better word.

And of course I am completely distracted at my job because of this. I give my opinion to an event that happened on Saturday. And what do I get in return? Well her Zumba was too hard for the kids. You know I actually work at this place and what I perceive is my reality. And to me, people were late and things weren't ready to go at 10:00AM when they were supposed to. And a vendor was doing something it was explicitly told not to.

I have been certified in Zumbatomic for a year now, and I am going to be starting classes in September. But am I actually qualified? Am I a good teacher? I don't know anymore. A few years ago I think I would have said yes. Because I wasn't this bitter person with a dark cloud that seems to loom over my head most of the time. But now I don't know.

What am I supposed to do?

Day 207

So I have had this up for awhile to talk about the book series I am reading/listening to. But I kept getting distracted and just can't seem to get started. So I will have to do it later. I will say I am not even halfway to 50 books and I only have half a year to go. I may have needed to start with a smaller number. Okay, I will say  if I can get to 30 books by the end of the year then great! I am at 17 books so far. I am going through about 2 books a month so I may be able to make it.

Like I said I am being distracted. But I will put what I weighed this morning.....179.8lbs! That is -0.6lbs from last week! Pretty happy. I will say no more as I am very busy. Perhaps when I get more time I will talk about the series I am reading.

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Day 199

Well I have been 2 weeks into trying to eat low carb items, but only 2 days into doing mostly Atkins type meals. So here is my weigh in....

My blog

So I have realized that the nature of this blog has changed a bit. I started out with a postitive outlook for 2013 and made some goals. Of course I realize that this might have been my way to keep covering up my depression which of course doesn't/didn't help.