Day 222

This entry is going to be in pieces because new things keep coming up or I go do something else here at work because it's my job but then want to say something here. So bare with me. :)

Ventings and Crap-ola

You know maybe I am not cut out to do Zumba. I really enjoy and I have been doing it for the past 3 years. My classes never seem to really grow. I am always have something else going on when traingings are happening and just got told that what I do is too hard. And this is the stuff I actually get from the Zumba DVD's I get. It's  not very often that I make up my own stuff as I like what Zumba corporate does. It's not really corporate, but I couldn't think of a better word.

And of course I am completely distracted at my job because of this. I give my opinion to an event that happened on Saturday. And what do I get in return? Well her Zumba was too hard for the kids. You know I actually work at this place and what I perceive is my reality. And to me, people were late and things weren't ready to go at 10:00AM when they were supposed to. And a vendor was doing something it was explicitly told not to.

I have been certified in Zumbatomic for a year now, and I am going to be starting classes in September. But am I actually qualified? Am I a good teacher? I don't know anymore. A few years ago I think I would have said yes. Because I wasn't this bitter person with a dark cloud that seems to loom over my head most of the time. But now I don't know.

What am I supposed to do?